I realized that once you get older, life tends to become more complicated. This is because you have or are expected to make more commitment:
- Family – as a child everything is being handled by your parents but as adult you are expected to support yourself plus your parents, spouse and children. As you grow older, you meet more people (in your college, workplace, church) but require to keep contact with previous people you know earlier in your life (family, relatives and schoolmates).
- Career – You are expected or willing to learn new stuffs (taking online courses, degree or industry certification), enhancing your communication, presentation and leadership skills while still keeping your technical skills.
- Spirituality – As a new believer (spiritual infant), you do not even have obligation of attending church every week. But as you grow spiritually more mature, your church and your own conscience want you to be involved in more ministry, more evangelism, more prayer time.
Obviously, it is not sustainable to those aspects in life keep growing forever because children, adults and elders are still limited by 24 hours per day. Their brain speed, memory and stamina will not becoming double or triple when they reached their 20s, 30s, or 40s.
Here are the list of meaningful events I encountered during this year:
- Graduated with my Masters degree
- Being scolded by my advisor because of low thesis standard (for him)
- Almost lost my wedding ring during church retreat event because it dropped to the sea
- Accepted into NUS PhD programme – but changed my advisor before even start first semester (yeah, it sucks…)
- Need to learn more complicated theoretical and technical stuffs – statistics, machine learning, and systems security – far more complicated than my work as a consultant in Hiend
- Have serious dispute with my spouse until we need come to my church pastor for counseling
- Interacting with seven NUS professors who specialized in security research (somehow NUS feel they need to hire more faculties in this area)
- Government decided to handover my system I developed with Hiend to another vendor by the end of this year
- Global economic crisis is gradually becoming worse – now the talk is practically everywhere
How can an individual handle these stuffs with sufficiently good quality? The classic answer is that you need to make priority. Another option is to change culture of always wanting new things like learning new things, buying new stuffs, or meeting new people if you think it is not possible to achieve those things without discarding the old one.
You have heard about this nonsensical advise from career counselor, CEOs of big companies, and rich people of keep growing yourself and of keep learning new stuffs every 4-5 years as if it is possible to learn new materials deeply without forgetting previous ones. If such materials are expired every 4-5 years, then is it really worth our times of learning those things? You may argue of doing something is more virtuous than doing nothing. I disagree, doing something useless or not meaningful for me is worse than doing nothing at all.
The entire world is the same thing – focusing on the positive side while ignoring the negative one. Take a look of GDP as economic indicator. It focused on production of wealth without counting the loss of other forms of wealth, such as leisure time, nature environment and community relationship (broken family and friendship). Because, if such things are counted as financial equation, the GDP will be negative.
Having said so, I am still grateful that God is still leading my life to keep my faith, study, work and family intact. And I wish this to continue.