I just want to recap my life with many things happen for the last 6 months:
- My current RA advisor refused to take me as his PhD student, so I was forced to settle with my second option – which is out of my anticipation. However, it was not so bad because I found himself to be supportive person since I communicated to him my lack of background in machine learning and he is willing to wait for me to learn. Additionally, I just knew that he also has expertise and papers in IoT domain, which is my secondary interest after program and binary analysis. However, the grant only spans for 2 years after which I need to find another one. My takeaway from this incident is that academic is a small place and if you somehow have unresolved conflict with your previous advisor (regardless of whose fault), it is very hard to actually find another advisor which field is very similar because most likely another advisor is your advisor’s collaborator or unwilling to take risk of taking you because he perceive you to be hard to manage.
- My new advisor linked me to NUS life long course manager to opportunity to deliver security course (prepare slide, conduct lecture and design assignment) to external IT staffs. Although the pay is very good, but I am still waiting confirmation for grant approval and I think if I am about to take this course, I will need some help as this is my first time experience
- God has not given my family a child and I have done fertility test on my side but the doctor said my sperm is normal. I have conflicting feeling inside me of having a child. On one hand, I understand the importance of having children for our family and society. However, the financial restraint of my family and the fact that my family is not very cooperative and the dire condition of our society let me think that having child at the moment is not really good thing. Definitely, life is not colorful but also save me more trouble for now. Somehow, I also feel missing Indonesia here and occasionally have feeling of isolation although I have been in Singapore for 14 years now…
- The process of understanding complex materials required for PhD is unlike working for most industry jobs. It really take intelligence, patience and focus of your mind because the materials are filled with abstract math symbols. To digest them really take months of intense effort, unlike reading emails or even business contracts…Not sure if quick thinking will be helpful for this because I saw even many of those Science Olympiad participants failed to publish any good papers during their PhD…
That’s all for this time! I wish to post more interesting things in next article other than life experience